I saw pretty, plus and proud’s story on word press today and wanted to post my response. I will link her blog here; it’s very new but it’s a great blog already.
I wanted to comment on her blog, and did, but I wanted a bigger reply on here.
I am a plus sized woman. I have been since I was a teenager. It’s been a mixture of hormones, genetics and bad food habits that made me that way. I still felt attractive and wasn’t as aware of my body as I became at university and beyond. I was a healthy size 16 and that’s all that mattered.
I joined weight classes to keep others in my life happy. I didn’t really care much for them.
Then London happened. That memorable fantastic and traumatic time! I was away from my family and was cooking for myself for the first time. I lived on takeaways. My local kebab shop new my first name. Never a good sign. The weight slowly piled on and I was oblivious until I saw this photo…
I stsrted to hate what i had done to my body and felt ugly. It did give me a shock and I began to start losing weight properly for the first time, maybe for the wrong reasons. I went from a size 20 to a 18 in a few months; thanks to my friends Jane, Collette and Lyndsay. We started doing zumba twice a week. It helped and it got me out of my flat.
I then moved back home and joined a gym which brought my personal trainer jonathon into my life. Awesome, friendly guy. I managed to tone down and get fitter, which really helped boost my confidence.
Yet it started to happen again. I got a job in a call centre and piled on more weight again.
A few years later I finally decided to lose weight for me and get the body I want. I feel much better for it although I do have those dark moments where I feel ugly and fat. But I know it’s in my head.
I do weightwatchers these days and the community support is amazing. There’s no judgement. It’s just a group of people with a common goal; to lose weight and be healthy.
I’m a size 14 and that’s all I want to be. I’m plus sized and proud to be! Thank you Ena for your post and encouraging me to post my story.
Bye for now!