It’s Okay to Talk

Hi guys,

I posted a blog post explaining one of my coping mechanisms for my anxiety disorder a few weeks ago, and some of you found it helpful. I’m really glad it brought about the right message and not a big “Oo what have you bought???” reponse. 

Today, I wanted to write about an experience that happened today at work. 

I have suffered anxiety for about five years, but only realised what it was when I began working in a mental health hospital. I know it shouldn’t, but it actually felt embarrassing to me that I felt the same way as the patients I was caring for. I felt that I wouldn’t give them the best care. It’s silly, but that is how I have felt since I realised what I have. Therefore, I have never spoken to any of my colleagues about it. 

Now I love my job and it is one of the few things that doesn’t give me a lot of anxiety. Somewhere in my head I know that I am good at it. But there’s also that part in my head that wants to bring a bad memory where I have failed at something and shoot that into the front of my mind at the weirdest moments. 

Today we were talking about silly work things and I felt that tickle in the back of my eyes telling me I was about to cry. I left the room and ran for the toilet to cry it out. I came back with sore eyes but felt a bit more vulnerable to mind attacks. Luckily I have lovely colleagues that recognised that I was upset and took me aside and asked what was up. 

So I told them. 

And I am so glad that I did. One actually told me, we’re your colleagues. we’re here to support each other. I haven’t said anything before because any sign of weakness has been used against me in the past. But this felt like a giant group hug. Everyone was really supportive and gave me some great advise. 

But the biggest one that I received is it’s okay to talk. Whether you’re feeling just a bit down or whether you’re just not yourself, tell someone that you trust. 

Anxiety is a horrible condition to have, but it is more common than you believe. Even just talking to somebody can help you feel that little bit better. When I spoke to my Mam about everything, she now recognises the signs and will give me a distraction. Every morning now she asks me how I’m feeling on a scale of 1 to 10; if it’s below a 5 she will ask me why. It’s good.

Anyway, I’m rambling. All I wanted to say from this is that if you are feeling anxious, depressed or suffer panic attacks, don’t suffer in silence- tell someone. It can lead to you getting the help to tackle the issue all together, or give you healthy coping mechanisms.

I’ll leave it here. Hope you’re all having a lovely day.

Bye for now.

xxx

 

Advertisements

About jennywren7

I'm Jennifer; northern beauty blogger and Starbucks addict. I enjoy blogging about various aspects of my life and throwing the odd review and tutorial into the mix. Hope you enjoy reading my various ramblings.
This entry was posted in Health and Fitness, Mental Health and tagged , , , . Bookmark the permalink.

3 Responses to It’s Okay to Talk

  1. ayrgalaxy says:

    It’s a coincidence that just today, I have seen things and or people mention something about anxiety, including you, and over the weekend my anxiety was triggered and it’s been hard to shake. But, today I’m feeling good even though I’m sick. And like you, there’s that part of my mind wanting to keep thinking about it and it feels like a battle in my head. Really sucks! I’m wanting to go into psychology and help people, I wonder if this will be a problem. Lol. I can handle it most of the time, but when it comes, it comes hard.

    Liked by 1 person

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s